Flaunt The Imperfections

Entry # 2020:43

Issue #5 is out now

Issue #5 is out now

I’m excited to share my newest self-published project with the world. I created my zine series “Flaunt The Imperfections” a few years ago, when I dove deeply back into film photography. I wanted an outlet for the work I created using my old cameras, all shot on film, showing the grain, contrast and the roughness that I love so much about non-digital image-making. I also wanted to make a strong commitment to the rejection of perfection. I had (and continue to have) a gnawing disdain for the flawlessness of a digitally captured and manipulated photograph. The use of film in old cameras allows for the introduction of happenstance, surprise, and yes, shortcomings and what some might deem as “failure.” The denial of these challenges can so easily be done when you can simply “delete” an image from your camera. Instead, I found these were attributes to exploit, and even celebrate.

The current issue of my zine is a radical step for me creatively. As many of us have felt through the past year…or four years… or even more… I have been afraid, insecure, worried, and angry about the state of the world, and the state of the union. The pandemic has of course weighed heavy on my mind, but so too have other pressing political and environmental issues. The world literally has been on fire. My artistic output has reflected this upheaval. And as I wandered through the remaining “burn scar” in the Rio Grande bosque earlier this summer, I had an abrupt realization that this damage I was witnessing could be reflected in my photography. I somehow decided that the subject matter, nature in general, and the forest and trees in particular, would be a platform for me to explore an intentional destruction and degradation of the film negatives I was creating. I started slowly, experimenting with different film stocks and sources of flame and heat. Then I went further, scraping, piercing, sanding, and then, finally stepping on the strips of film. The metaphors are obvious and need no further explanation.

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As is my usual approach, I moved quickly to bring this body of work to publication. I had time to focus on the production (and destruction) of the work, and I worked on the final layout with little hesitation. As such, there are probably elements of the final piece that I might have changed or adjusted, but again, the purpose of this zine series is a celebration of imperfections. It’s all there on the page, like it or not.

I have started taking orders for the zine, and will ship in early November. I you’d like to order a copy, please click the link below. I am proud of this work, and hope to share it with as many of you as possible.


2020: 30 The (Not-So) Subtle Art of Not Giving A F*ck

an addendum to my weekly posts… with a nod to Mark Manson

Fog, light leaks, lens flare, scratches, dust, grain, etc. I love everything about this image.

Fog, light leaks, lens flare, scratches, dust, grain, etc. I love everything about this image.

I had an epiphany this morning. Or just a “kick in the eye.” I already had a thought rattling around in my brain that needed to surface. And it did. There’s a dude out there on the internet named Mark Manson, whose newsletter I subscribe to. He’s also written a book that I did read, but maybe not fully embrace. But then again, it must have sunken in, or validated something inside of me, hence this rambling post.

I don’t give a fuck. Right now anyway. Here’s the rub: I shot a roll of film over the past few days, and wanted to develop and scan it over the weekend. So yesterday, I loaded the film in my changing bag and stand processed the film in my kitchen sink. Unbeknownst to me, a sizable tear had developed in the sleeve of my changing bag. Long story short, the roll of film suffered from some serious fogging (I’ll let you digital natives google that.) My roll was far from pristine… lots of light leak damage along the frame edges. I think the fact that I stand developed the roll for 37 minutes on a hot day probably exacerbated the results. The grain was pronounced, too.

Guess what? I didn’t give a fuck and scanned the roll anyway. And I love every fucking frame on the roll. The smattering of lights and darks creeping into the frames, the rough edges of the film sprockets, a bit of dust here and there. I love it all. Why? Because it is a mess, it is imperfect. It is not a perfect digital image. It is not a fast swipe through on Instagram. Which brings me to another point. I get really aggravated when I hear film shooters complain about how long it takes to scan their film. I think it’s an integral part of the process. And though it might take an hour or so for me to scan an entire roll on my archaic Epson 3200 Photo, I don’t fucking care. I put my headphones on, crank the Spotify, and focus on the task at hand. One at a time, the scans pop up on a folder on my desktop, and I do a quick crop and levels adjustment, while the scanner continues its work on the next image.

Spend some time on your photos, for Frank’s sake! Even if they are are failures. Especially if they are failures. You’ll learn from the experience. You’ll slow the fuck down and study your images. Why did I shoot this? Is it any good? IT IS GOOD solely because you took the time to make that photograph. It might not get 100 likes on Instagram. It might not end up as print, or in a zine. But who fucking cares? It is a moment of your life that you invested in. It is evidence that you saw something and responded to it. And if it’s covered in dust, or fogged, or scratched, or out of focus, or just a lame, boring photo, it just doesn’t matter. No one else gives a fuck, why should you? Embrace it.

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